Archive for February, 2007|Monthly archive page
I know – and im trying
Every time someone thinks or even talk/say about me- its always negative- i represent negativity. I so don’t want to be that – but the harder i try not to be that way – the deeper i plunge in to the pool or negativity π¦
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If someone is reading i suppose you can sense the “sad” / lame part of me- No matter how nice and happy i try to portray myself…. i end up having a bitter end to most of my blog entries, and real life in this case. I was always happy with temporary ecstasy which i had from -friends, family- lovers.
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i once heard of an artist who had paintings that looks and felt depressing no matter how hard he tried to make them look happy
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eerf had in fact lived to its purpose –
there is no true word for the opposite of free-
that’s how i ended up with eerf– what an irony
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this is it the end of my blog π
thanx for reading
none for eerf.blogspot.com
Where is everyone ??
Sometimes – i realize that i try too hard π¦
Guess ill try harder..
guess ill just try else where..
idk idk …
1 for February 14 π
Alah No BBQ by the beach
Better off Doin it Alone
Back in Penang , everything was plain simple. You wake up- you get some MOM`s special Milo. You get ready for work – WORK- come home – play – hang out- eat- have fun (note- the list is actually endless) But right now i live in Old Klang Road – Where i wake up like really early – Get myself to work – which is actually a tough thing- its like a 1 hour journey- WORK- 1 hour journey back and….drum rolls……….. do NOTHING then just look at the ceiling. So i said ” This should not prolong. So i opted to bring Ziggy to the Big Apple with me (My PC) .
Then things got a better had – i had some things to look forward to whenever i go back home to. Not to mention i have some very nice people who occasionally take me out for a dinner- I mean its the best i say – what else can you ask for then for a dinner at a different spot. I am truly thankful to my brother – if it wasn’t for his friends i would be lost here.
So being better off alone you say sasi………
Ive noticed that ever since i got here , i need to do everything all by myself. Those whose answering back to this phrase- hold your horses .
You see when you are here – you NEED to do everything ALL by yourself- and i can bet you that most of you out there don’t know jack s#!+ of what i am going through.
OK- here it is.
- You wake up
- -bath-
- make or buy something to eat by yourself-
- iron your cloth –
- and get to work all by yourself-
- come back from work
- do the laundry –
- buy food -YOUR self- and sleep –
Oh not to mention clean up your place once in a while. You will not have anyone to remind you of anything which may be important- you will not have anyone to update you of anything- Its like your in JAPAN ffs.
Building what you once had….
Your 25 years old – so when you move else where you NEED to build back relationship from square 1 – thats like a 25 years long project. You wont have good friends- you would have normal friends -since your childhood friends are all back in your hometown. If you were to compare yourself on your progress back in you hometown – you would have done better- in which you wont even know what i am going through because in order for you to understand my situation – you have to endeavor it yourself.
i never meant to rant today… π¦ but there are just sometimes where you need to let people know. This was actually an ongoing thing in my life – i just didn’t want to share it- thats all- besides most of them don’t really care. They`ll be like – stop sulking and get over it or something like that.. ahahaha
So this is how i felt before the clock hit 2007 this year- i am over it right now. not
“over it” not in a sense of immune to it but more like – “Sasi ! this is you, and this is the path you have to go”
GG guys π
1 for HOME
p.s GG is an acronym for good game. It can mean – “Ok we are hosed” right up to “good job guys” its a very popular gaming term π
Iam Ga-nan-Z from New Zealand
I was back in Penang last week – l
my plan when i was in Kl was to catch a bus at noon and drop by 6pm at jeti and bribe my friend with a Whooper Burger from Burger King. So with quik liquid speed i dashed to the burger king bought the stuff and lapped to the bus station only to be greeted to “Sorry bang – dwebleh punye baaeh doh lepaieh dah” so i said topo- bagi aku satu punye-so i got in the bus and was on my meery way- then SUDDENLY bas stopped completely – stopped at Tapah and that was it – it stopped fer good- “aleh dik Btheri Kong deh”
so i deviced a plan to hitch hike a from another bus – which only happens to stop at sg.petani which is 2 hours away from penang- so i was told- i said OK- then i started calling people frantically to get my self from sg.petani- but to my luck -my dad happen to hire a van to get my mom n sis to penang- i saw the oppurtinity and took the chance – i told the bus driver to stop me at Bt.Kawan – and walked my way to home only to be delayed for another 2 hours before i was sent to Penang- DRop PG and that was it la – I WHISPERED TO MY SELF GG LA SASI -eehh tercaps lock pula.
man i had to say i patched up every THING – everything that includes you preevena. Im being viewed in a diffrent perspective right now. Being a so called “party leader” – we managed to over come some diffcult times in game.
But im just 65 right now – i know i could do better – so i hafta work deligently to lvl – have target to reach 70 by sunday and raid non stop on Mana tombs and also tempest keep – have some dark agendas right there( note if i have mention it here – it is not so dark anymore)
Had a modest BBQ at moggs- had some Tanni as well- we were all happy and thats what boost is capable of -nothing else and it shud remain that way.
This required to penang
3 seluak dalam
2 seluak pendek
1 jeans stail levi potong lurus
3 baju t-shirt
1 book
1 Jack Daniels 1ltr
things attained at penang
tipsy
full stomach
happy face
stronger bond wif my geng
and as always- felt like a royality
it`s priceless –
Thanx guys
1 for bryan from parit buntar <—– click here
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