Lets call it, my “problems”

Did you know to be completely honest no 1 gives a damn about your problems…they have their own.

I know i can sense a lot of nodding even now, i hate to break it to you kid but seriously the “bark elsewhere” phase kept playing in the loop at the back of mehead…

WOooo WWoooooffff……. !!

1 for “i dun give a shit” cards, i have enuff of them

Draft you say ?

All said and done, I think some people are as sour as sour can be, geez talk about grudges..

Anyways..its that time of the year again, i never knew`d that the cycle of life would actually hit me at this rate.

Im am now busy drafting .. maybe i`ll see you guys soon

1 for revamps

Why am i on the boat again ?

After fooling around for a while i come to realize that am completely lost yet again. Im lost in direction, im in lost in friendship, im in lost in my own world – i dont know who i am anymore…..im lost

My explanations on getting my words across with my flawless innuendos seem to fail me now – its labeled contradictions….

when i listen to myself talking it sounds fine 2 me( now that is not fine when others see it the other way around)

Its looks like the honeymoon year 2009 is ova.! as the days go by i find it difficult to fit to any1 these days.

Its as tho am slipping in to a solitary confinement like there is a sink hole within me. What…? could this be another malevolent awakening …???

Ohh this is gonna be a enjoyable & terrible ride i say (*yes its contradictive, i know, now you see what i mean ? )

I even spoke to my exgirlfriend yesterday –

she laid it plain “You`r just a confused chap” not shabby at all i would add – but wherelese would you go to understand yourself more than your ex- significant other?

Let see if she helps

1 for Karma recoils they are oh so inevitable

*the whole writeup is a mess

*these words are gonna come bitting my arse, thats fer sure alright ;/

My dad my HERO

I believe my journey has thought me lots of things, and i feel its almost about time for it to come to a full circle….

As i am writting this, i cant but contain the feelings that is seeping through me right now.
On how am i going to repair and rebuilt what was tarnished…my image.. do i even have one there… hahah makes me wonder !!!

The journey has thought me tht there is GOD…..

God i am ready ……..

I knew it was the day when I saw my dad taking a afternoon nap…. I`ve never seen him that exhausted…

I knew it was the day when my dad was sleeping the entire day…

I knew it was the day when i finally could beat him in arm wrestling….

I love you dad…..i really do

1 for the MAN that bought me to this wonderful world……my dad my hero !!!!

Unbreak my heart

When you have been alone and suddenly some 1 comes along your sight and you feel that im gonna go for her. What would you do to make sure you get it right this time. Here`s some advise

1. get noticed, dress up
2. be clean n decent, as in SHAVE.. LOL
3. Smile; just keep smiling like a moron
4. be a listener and try to make them talk. very simple just as how are they ; and para phase the same sentence and give an example

How are you ?
am OK.

Oh OK, like you need a coffee break or.. ?

keep hinting they will talk soon enough….

1 for luck, for all of us needs it

Understanding folks…

is rather hard when some1 has a mental note of who you were…

No matter how you might have changed or behaved somehow people seem to seek that shitty part of you; like a heat seeking missile ahahahha

I have been shot down, yet again..now why isnt it always the other reason ya — i wonder why.

( i need to start turning things insideout )

1 for my “we know la you.. !! always like that wan”

Lost to say…(but procastination sux)

I had shits to say LOL. but its lame to have an emo post as an opener after so long hahahaha…

Recently I have been hunting around a lot of things in my life.. who isnt. but most of them are just around the corner, we just need to swallow our egos; NOT too much later its reflects a weakness. I want a better looking physique, i wanna a better looking smile ( now that i have a dental card eheheh ) and i want a relationship.. well at least to pass my time.

To those out there, listen to me on this . “You can never be all too sure that some1 is not gonna take advantage of us” <— this phase is not cool at all – your in a completely different frequency. Instead change it to " I wana take advantage of him/her" THAT my friend will in turn actually give you a different perspective all together and understand and think they way “they ” function…. Good luck

1 for the evil people that make us realize….

A = Acceptance

Today we talk about “A” which is for Acceptance. Do you know the heartache we all go through not knowing or be able to know and accept others choice in life…? Its hard infact its IMPOSSIBLE.. !!! ahahah

i stand here as a man as a boy as a person who is learning to accept the truth, the choice the reality and what it has to offer. Now mind you/me the word “learning to” because as far as you`d know it there are so many things that entangle us in this melodramic life.

Now what are these things that make us not accept the truth; well i have a few…

Like my ex-girlfriend, I was really goin full force on my “relationship”, all the way..in Hokkien they say it “Sai Lang” “Show hand”(all in like in poker) but things took a weird turn and it ended in a short but a rather very painful 4 year fluctuative love life. Why because there are just a few stuffs about her which am still not able to grasp ; i just cant nor can she…

Or for the fact that me being able to get back to some old crush; and start things all over again- well i just cant – to know that i will never be able to be in bed wit her again is just crap!!

I write today with great grief and despair knowing that i will never be able to accept what my friends, lovers, family have chosen but only to conform like a slave to the fate that lies to us all. Let us accept our lives and carve our path to success in life ; because for those who crave success they will know how its attained….

There are so many things, so take it from me ; as today it might be your word of the hour/day/week or maybe year….

Accept for what an individual chooses for he/she knows that they will bare the consequences. and all we can do is just…maybe just…tell them what is wrong and not tell them what is correct..because what may seem correct to us actually carries a huge amount of experience for us to know that -”that” something is wrong; where else they are in an oblivious world just beginning to take baby steps…

1 for for the tough part in life..

Converging; with innocence (or is it just a disguise for being evil)

Recently i was at this place where people were sharing ONLY good thought of each other…

They were only saying good things about you and all they gave me back “What do you think of me? ” look…..oblivously.

Like i ONLY have nice things to say, well it gets rather complicated; the conversation is not really stereotypical; there was no balance between good and evil.. as in good and badass comments. I wanna be like a lil kid, you know act and behave “present” and voice out whatever that is genuine.

while i was there I felt sick to my stomach… it was pretentious .Is this what they do at churches or anywhere similar… ???

I know i said churches but i cant think of anything more relevant at this point of time…but no offense to you guys goin to churches alright..

Do you guys feel me ??

Brains, keep it trained :P

me to my Girl via SMS

“i cant think of any brilliant words to say today. Guess i love you does the trick”

after sending it i realized something; i was sleepy and instead of searching for her number i just typed it and sent the sms…….
you see my girl used to have a number which was similar to my older Mobile number and i always get confused to
the digits……. like EVERY TIME

ahahha

just as i was about to slip in slumber then it struck me … was it 336 or was it 366 … ??

OMG its 336 !!!!!!1

i realized that i had sent it to a WRONG number

The first thought on my head was – what if this sms was sent to a lonely person who is in dying need of love..

I felt really bad..

Initially , i wanted to call that number to personally apologize but the single thought of me wanting to know the persons gender haunted me……

just i just sent another message in return ..

“Sorry wrong number. So sorry “

and i went back to sleep.

but the reason i bought this up because last time i used to receive a lot of wrong numbered SMS-es..

There was this once a house wife sent me something between these lines..

“Yang t`lng tapau Toseh atau Oti Cnai. dik xnak kari, susu manis. Ok teng kiu “

Then i replied

“Saya Xyang kamu, saya xjual apa2 service. Sori tolong naik Lori “

Then the lady actually replied

“Jangan la yang, please….”

At this point i was dumbfounded and straight away called the old hag

Me : “Ello miss pls jangan sms saya, saya bukan u punya suami. You salah nombo”

She: “Eh mana i boleh silap nombo suami I ? “

Me : “You check 2 kali nanti you call dia balik, sorry” and i hung-up

to be honest the lady kept miss calling and smsing my number for a long time but i just had to ingnore her, besides don’t we all get this kinda crap EVERY TIME when we step into a Government Building ???

We just live by it; keeps us at the top of the game, or at least reminds us we aren’t in the bottom of it …..

1 for dumb fucks, hahahah they crack me up